strikingfalcon:
Am I the only one with having a nightmare related to trauma, in the dream as they try to escape from that person they successfully fight back? You kick, yell, scream at them and attack, spit curses and you feel like a goddamn hero! Like you finally get away and you feel so fucking happy that you wake up almost crying because of one, the fear of it all and two the success? Then the sucky side effects of being hypervigilant the rest of the day, scared as all Hell but still you can’t get over that euphoric feeling and you pray every day that it happens? Or am I just that strange person? I think I might be strange.
I’m unsure if I count as a child abuse victim…I’m told it’s not even abuse by my family, eh therapist says otherwise. Still can’t wait to show them who I am in the RCAF when I’m older! I’ll be flying the big birds soon! Only three more years!
I’ve had dreams of standing up to my own abuser, too. I never really got a real chance to call him out due to my position in the custody fight. I’m more than glad that he’s been staying out of my life, but sometimes I imagine just what I would say to him of I ever saw him again. None of those words are nice.
So no, you’re not the only one who has dreams like that.